I Never Spoke of Forever

Would you stay if I told you what's been eating me lately?
Would you listen if I told you that my inside's driving me crazy?
Would you accept this, or rather reconsider, recalculate?
Please listen to me as I unveil my state...

I hate to be so violent and I hate to be so heartless
But it is all that I can do and feel, it's all that I can be
I am sick of being tired and I tire of being sick
And I cannot believe I'm losing (again), but I believe I'm losing it.
Getting used to losing is what I did all these past years, as my days consisted of nothing
But trauma and fear
Further and further
Detached from the people, the few I cared about, the one I cannot be without.
Screaming her name in the dark, seeking her eyes in the sky
Skyshard - doesn't matter, out of reach anyway.

Daybreak and Daybreaker, what have I become?
Detoxed blood in my veins and it still feels wrong.

Some moments I spend with running over this blackened pages of my yesterdays
Nothing is what I mostly see, but beyond it, I remember your epiphany...
Sanguine hair, pale skin, blue-eyed angel, but a devil within
Abandoning what could have been without losing a word about what we have been.
And sometimes I still wonder, what fucking happened that tore us asunder
Pals since ever, no more, never, tell me why - I never spoke of forever.
Never, I never spoke of forever.

But you will be replaced.

Months ago, you were the one and some months in the future you’ll just be someone

You’ll just be someone I used to have feelings for,

You’ll just be a decision I don’t regret anymore.

You will be replaced and your name will be erased from its place within my heart.

You will be erased from your place within my heart, a place you roamed from the start.

I still hate to be so violent but I adore to be so heartless

And nothing, nothing can change my mind because you're goddamn fucking worthless

By now ire is all I've left for you, you'll join the fucking gap between chapter one and two

Good luck with fighting the malice you'll find there, you won't survive this blight

Prepare for your final fight.

(I never)

Neither war paint nor charms... (forever)

Neither soldiers, friends nor arms...

Will help you fight my catastrophe --

The pulsing, convulsing, catastrophic disease.

I never (I never) spoke of forever.

I never (ever) spoke of forever.

Spiritus Rector

Can you feel the salt...
Can you see the lead...
Turn to dust for what we've eternally bled

Decay, my son
My daughter
My flower
My utmost beautiful love
Let me lay you to rest
Let me give you to death
Your remains shall be cremated
Your remains shall be transmuted
To fire and to air,
To water and to earth.

Catharsis you shall achieve.
Putrefaction you shall overcome.

Fire was never meant to cleanse
It was meant to blacken, to cremate
And so everything shall pass away, transcend into its ashen forms
Led by the Spiritus Rector, to drift there whence it came from
Ascend, salt to sand...
Ascend, lead to gold...
Ascend, gold to rust...
Turn to dust all that we've known, all that we've been
Turn to dust all that has been
Take away all my sin, take care of my kin.
I'll give the world their heir
He'll inherit the guilt, he'll inherit the will
I'll give you a heir
Take away and take care.

Decay, my beloved
It is time for you to leave
My son...
My daughter...
My lost...
My love...
To fire. To water. To air. To earth.
Fire you shall see, water you shall breathe, air you shall keep, earth you shall be.