Ashen Structure

There is nothing left inside I could relate to anymore, it seems like
After breaking a thousand times, my heart is harder than before (my talonheart)
I disconnected the dots before the lines were to damaged
The raw intensity of my grief has completely vanished
Where there is love once there was hate
Where there is joy once there was pain
But though I know I just cannot relate.

With all these miles in front and all this mess behind me, I'm standing my ground resolutely.

It may try to stop me
It may try to break me
But it will never bring me down, down, down on my knees again.
It burned away my flesh
And ground my bones to ash
But this ashen structure will serve as my new skeleton.
It feels so unreal, I doubt the strength I feel.
But fuck it, I won't let doubt stop me now, no, never again.
Never again?, ok - fuck what I've said.
These intentions are choking slipknots around my neck.
What a shame it'd be to asphyxiate shortly after regaining my faith.
So listen up, Laneor: for now, I won't go down, leave behind the ground and take you out!

Do you still remember the Thaumaturgist?
The thorn in your side, the one to resist?
You may have thought you've killed him, but you've just set him free
And at this very moment, his insanity/essence is merging with me.

(Un)reality fades away
(For the first time), I'm seeing (un)clear through bloodshot eyes (SEWN SHUT), I see the future
- your demise -
Only one of us will make it out alive, and no matter how it ends, I'll exist forever.
(Maybe) I'll always be alone, (maybe) I'll always be on my own
I'll break the rules, I'll twist the fate --
(I don't know how, but) I'll manipulate...

...so there is nothing left inside I could relate to anymore, it seems like
After breaking a thousand times, my heart is harder than before (my talonheart)
I disconnected the dots before the lines were to damaged
The raw intensity of my grief has completely vanished
Where there is love once there was hate
Where there is joy once there was pain
But though I feel I just cannot relate.

A second of transcendence (OPEN YOUR EYES)
Bright colours embrace me -- (CLOSE AGAIN) - black.
Tsukuyomi, take me away --
-- Shinigami, be my warden --
Let me face this evil one more day.

It is still pulsing inside me.
I am still bleeding out sec by sec.
It is still pulsing... convulsing... catastrophic, cataclysmic.
But with my exhumed strength and all these miles in front me I'm stepping forward
Entering the void.